Thoughts On Evolutions

“I know it will sound like nonsense to them. I was them.” – Anon

Fellow reader,

my intention with this blog is sharing thoughts and experiences that I have found difficult to share with many others. First of all, it is a rarity to meet a person who knows what “consciousness studies” encapsulate, let alone think about it and understand the issue, and second of all, someone who can hear why I chose this particular research, and stay open-minded and supportive.

When I say that I used to be way more normal, by that I mean I used to be a regular pedestrian on a street, contemplating a book I was reading, relationship problems, work situation, when would be a good time to have a beer, and similar mundane issues.

To cut the crap, at the end of 2020 I experienced something that switched my perception on reality, or rather materialism as the way to go. Consequently, I became interested in explaining why (did that happen to me).

It was essentially nothing more than a feeling, but a feeling that remained dominant in the back of my mind, or for neuroscientifically literate readers, it existed constantly in my default mode network. Phenomenon of (in this case, positive) trauma can be explained neuroscientifically simply by experiencing a stimulus subjectively so intense (neuronal firing) that it leaves a mark in the brain. This is also how PTSD happens, only this was a much brighter version of experiencing trauma. A mystical experience, so they say.

“I must console myself that the nature of the subject is evidently responsible for this, rather than any preference of my own”, is a quote by Freud I read in Mark Solms‘ book on consciousness, The Hidden Spring. I also must console myself about the fact that i have been taken into researching areas of spiritual matters and (early) theological thoughts such as gnosticism, or getting familiar with theosophy. I really don’t think they were wacky. For someone who used to easily declare as atheist, it still feels a little strange to consider these to be of significance.

Nevertheless, they are important.

As you can read in further essays, the evolution of consciousness, I claim, is not an evolution of matter, genes and “the real world”. It is an evolution of ideas, memes and “the imaginary world”, mathematics and geometry underlying that what we experience as spacetime. Holy sheesh, there’s a whole bunch about this on QRI’s website.

Selfish meme, just like selfish gene, is essentially that what makes up dominant memes in society. Naturally, there’s nothing as powerful as love to our experience and allow me to try to explain that love is physics.

My claim is that 1) alignment in one’s feelings and actions in the world (knowing thyself) and 2) intuitive comprehension of nature of time can lead to extremely powerful physiological reflexes that create positive traumas and are responsible for blooming of many early religions led by “enlightened” individuals who simply wanted for everyone to transcend and share their ecstasy. Sadly, business and competition got involved in the meantime and the game got dirty.

I want to explain what I have found in my mind. It’s a place where any consciousness can travel once it decides to fall freely and follow the gut-feeling, and that might find explanation in some gravitational laws I’m writing about here.

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P.S. The title of the post is a reference to R. D. Laing’s “The Politics of Experience and the Birds of Paradise“.